For those who always asked “why?”

To whoever is reading this, please know that this message is especially for you (seeing as I most likely will silently publish this and am mainly writing this because I have the conviction on my heart to share love and truth with you).

Wherever you are right now is perfect exactly as it is.

Even in it’s messiness, there is beauty amidst the chaos.

If you allow yourself to be sharpened by this chapter, you will cut through resistance like a diamond.

You are so incredibly magical and special. You have a purpose here.

I write this after reading a few journals of old entries I made from 2009-2020. I haven’t even explored the last few years, honestly I’m tired. There’s only so much reflecting on the past I can do in one sitting!

It was really fascinating to see the shift in my perspectives, my mindset, my energy, and my spirituality as I allowed myself to be cracked open by life.

The place I started did not set me up for success either.

From a young age I had already labelled myself as broken and lost, just trying to navigate the world and walking through life with the looming question of why?

It consumed my every thought. Why are things this way?

If you love me, why do you treat me this way?

Isn’t there a better way to communicate, why is this the norm?

The list goes on… but maybe you can relate and have always questioned things as well.

Perhaps you’ve carried pain with you along this journey and are only now starting to unpack the load that’s piled up. I hope you can see that that in itself is so perfect.

In reading my writing, I witnessed a girl who got horribly depressed, suicidal, had debilitating anxiety and ADHD and didn’t see her worth at all transform into a woman who had discovered the light inside her and knew her worth, saw how purposeful her experiences had been, and began claiming a higher reality for herself.

A girl who would find herself sabotaging and destroying her life, to creating one and finding the voice inside of her and the bravery to share with others. I also saw all of us inside of her, because we’re all connected. The journey might not always make sense, especially when you struggle at such a young age.

One day you will see, it does get better. I promise.